Dani Shapiro

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Each year, for the past four years, I have traveled with my family to Positano, a small village on Italy's Amalfi Coast, where Michael and I run a writers' conference.  We fly to Naples, then drive an hour south, along narrow, winding roads, hairpin turns, one way streets until finally we arrive at our friends' hotel.  We're shown to our room, and are drawn immediately to the windows.  We open the shuttered doors to our terrace, and are greeted with this:

And instantly, I start fighting the feeling--you know that feeling--of the ticking clock.  We are only here ten days, a small voice whispers.  Ten days!  A long time, but already the minutes are slipping away.  As I wrote in Devotion, I am longing for the moment I'm in, even as I'm in it.  I see this quality in Jacob as well.  He is aware of time passing, moving into the future, and too often missing the present.  Each day, since arriving here, I have unrolled my yoga mat and moved through an hour's practice.  Be here, I remind myself.  I sit cross-legged on the floor and breathe in.  I am breathing in.  Breathe out.  I am breathing out.  Right now, the sound of a guitar amplified in the distance.  The water is still.  A dog barks.  The students--thirty of them, from all over the States--are arriving to this same view, this gathering of writers.  Some of my favorite people are here, and some new friends as well.  The time will pass, but the moment is here--and there really is only one way to live it: right now.

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  • triciawarren
    It is very hard for me to live in the minute also. Constant fears of being alone, disaster, what ifs. I just finished your book, Devotion, and related with many issues. Belief in God, what I was taught, how my children feel about me (mine are grown), and just why I am here. I love your writing and hope that eventually both of us will discover answers that we have always needed answered. Sometimes I feel so alone in this world, even though married with parents still, taking care of parents with dementia, grandchildren, etc. Sometimes it is too much! We don't take care of our inner needs and I am afraid that I won't be here (I am 56) to be able to do that because each day I am taking care of someone else's issues. Good luck to you and I know eventually we will find our inner beliefs.
  • Dani, thanks for the lovely words on being present. I am on vacation at the ocean, and also reminding myself to be here, not on the vacation this reminds me of, or what I need to do tomorrow. Packed my yoga paws and practicing each morning. Can I really do an hour of stretching and breathing? Why not!
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